I am working on thinking better about myself and loosing the negative thoughts. I think this is the hardest one to practice. It has been a habit for so many years. I am really getting into the bike rides in the morning and on the weekends, which is having a positive affect on my mood as well as my scale! Woo ho! Heck, I even opened up in Wal-Mart and flirted with a guy while we waited in line! THAT's a good ego booster; that he flirted back! :) Oh boy, am I outta practice though! Time to step it up and practice!
I have been avoiding thinking about the person I used to be, the Bitch with a Mission. There are so many unorganized thoughts in my head about this. I REALLY need to sit down and put them on paper to see where they lead. Maybe tomorrow. :)
I am trying to relax about things, especially Son's behaviors. This is hard too. I worry too much about what people think about my abilities as his mother. "Wow, she didn't teach him anything! What a failure she is!" I think as I get more relaxed into who I am, this will get easier. As I get more confident in ME, it will matter less to have control over Son and what people are thinking of me.
I have done NOTHING about contacting Dog Trainers yet. Its on the list of things to do. I will get to it. Promise!
Son saw the therapist this week and she didn't say anything when she brought him back, so I have to assume that nothing too bad came out tonight and that he behaved. Son will be going every other week and I will be going on the opposite weeks. She stepped this up for me so I guess I need the therapy as much as Son does. That's ok, I'll take it. I'll take ANY help I can get to be the best mom that Son deserves.