Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Selfish

I am selfish.  I am tired of all the work my father involves.  Driving him places, mainly Drs appts.  Helping him up out of the chair. Lifting his legs in the car. Being afraid I am going to hurt him.  I am just tired of him being tired and sick.  I want my strong, healthy Daddy back.

How can I be so selfish?  Do I honestly think HE wants to be so dependent on me and everyone around him?  He's the one suffering.  Not me.  He's the one fighting and probably loosing the fight for his life.  And I am tired of doing for him.

What a horrible, selfish Daughter I am!  But I am there.  I drop everything and run when he or ESM needs me.  When they called the Ambulance to take him to ER, I drove like a hellion to get there for them.  I stayed there until 3 am and he was settled in his room.  I was the one to run to Dunkin' Donuts to bring him a doughnut and a Pepsi.

I am tired.  I am selfish.  I want my strong, healthy Daddy back.  I think this is one time I might not be getting my way.

I am selfish.  I am tired.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Popcorn Anyone? - WW

This is my favorite Caramel Popcorn place EVER!



This is just my opinion of course.
I'd be willing to sample your favorite popcorn place



Monday, August 25, 2014

Views

There were so many fabulous views in Ocean City.  I was fortunate to have my camera with me to capture several of them.  Let's see if I remember where and when I got the pictures.....


The ferris wheel on the pier.
Jakes and I were pedaling on the boards.  Well, he was pedaling and I was taking pictures

This is from the parasailing boat on the way in from our sail.
This is the Inlet that leads from the bay to the ocean with the pier in the background

The beach at sunrise.



Friday, August 22, 2014

Busy busy....

While we were waiting to go parasailing, we got to see the very busy Rt 50 bridge.  The week before we were there, it got stuck in the OPEN position.  This is a main road in and out of Ocean City leading to Salisbury and other cities.  I was told that people sat there for HOURS until they were able to get the bridge fixed.

All the boats would drift back to the bridge, most with fishing lines dragging behind them

It doesn't take a tall boat before they have to raise the bridge for passage.

But at least its not open for long.


Thursday, August 21, 2014

Parasailing

Jakes and I got to go Parasailing. I loved it!  Jakes did it but was white knuckled the entire time we were up there.

This isn't us but it will be!

We're up there!
that's our boat WAY down there.....
and of course the shoreline in the distance

Splashdown.....  We got dunked twice because Jakes didn't get wet enough the first time

I would do it again!

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

The View - WW

Is this an awesome view or what?


From the Boardwalk in the morning

Monday, August 18, 2014

Catching Up

I've been away from my blog but for a good reason.  I was on vacation with the family.  It was a lovely time!  We went to Ocean City, MD which is where Daddy spent a lot of his teenage summers.  He loves it there and so do I.  I think I prefer OCMD beach to any of the ones in NJ that I've visited.

I will share pictures with you this week of our activities.  So many good things!

I have one more vacation scheduled for the summer.  I don't have any big plans yet.  We'll see if anything good comes up.


Daddy has one or two more chemo sessions and they will then do another scan to see where things stand.  The Drs and nurses are excited over the huge drop in his cancer count numbers.  They have dropped from over 1900 to 393 at the last count!  I don't know exactly how they get this number but they are counting the cancer cells in his blood.  At 393 there is considerably less to count.


Dating. Or trying to date.  I've gotten several responses to my online profile but it hasn't materialized into anything.  One guy I chatted with for about 5 minutes, then he hung up on me.  I thought maybe my cell had cut off so I called back and left him a message.  About an hour later, I got a message from him through the dating site "good luck".  Nice.  You can tell about a person in less than 5 minutes.  Well, good for you.

The most recent one contacted me while I was on vacation.   I told him I was away and I would email him when I got back late Sunday.  About 6:30 Sunday, there was a message from him saying he figured something must have come up for me and that I wasn't interested.  Well, so sorry I have a life and you don't have any patience.

Moving onto the next one!


Jakes starts his sophomore year in high school on Thursday!  When did I get a sophomore? I'm not old enough to have a kid that old!  Hopefully this school year will be as uneventful as last year was.


Time to head out and give the garden some TLC.  I'll be around to catch up on your blogs shortly!