Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Honesty About Jakes

I haven't seen Jakes since the middle of October.  And I don't miss him.  We had a huge fight.  I mean huge, with police called and threats of charges from both sides.  

Huge fight.  Nasty fight.  I haven't seen or heard from him since.  And I don't miss him.

To be honest, and that's what I'm supposed to be doing here, I have been dreading seeing him for a long, long time.  I didn't want to go and get him for the weekends.  I didn't want to have to argue with him over everything.  I was sick of being talked down to by him. I was sick of bowing down to his wishes for everything.

I continued to get him on weekends cause that is what a mother is supposed to do.  I continued to see him cause his is my son.  

His behavior and disrespect immediately prior to the fight was the last straw for me.  So I've decided that I do not have to be treated like that, even by my son.  I refuse to be treated like that by my son.   Even if he is my son.

So I've said a metaphorical good-bye to him and am trying to enjoy my life.  

Monday, November 24, 2014


Hello.  I'm still around.  Life is moving forward. Some days with me, some days with me stuck in the bed.  I haven't been honest with myself about a lot of things.

This blog is my place to be honest with myself and since I haven't been able to do that, I've avoided the blog.

My therapist wants me to face some things in my life so maybe its time to start doing that here.

I hope you'll join me on my journey to honesty.  see you soon!