Hello

Hello.  I'm still around.  Life is moving forward. Some days with me, some days with me stuck in the bed.  I haven't been honest with myself about a lot of things.

This blog is my place to be honest with myself and since I haven't been able to do that, I've avoided the blog.

My therapist wants me to face some things in my life so maybe its time to start doing that here.

I hope you'll join me on my journey to honesty.  see you soon!

Quick Update

I know I said I was taking a break.  BUT, there are family members who read my blog for the details I share.  Dad has been keeping his sisters and brother up to date on things happening but he's a To The Point kinda guy.  lol  His email this week:

"Mediport placement went well. Chemo orientation 9/10. first chemo appointment 9/16"

Just the facts, ma'am. giggle.

SO!  Dad is doing well. While he was at the hospital all day long for the Mediport placement, the surgery went well and he's healed very well from it.  He said there is still a little bit of pain but he's still healing around the port.

I am very proud that he's taken ALL the advice of the drs.  He's eating more frequently and smaller portions. He said its like he's grazing all day long.  He's also resting more, which is good too.  

We are exploring ways to build him up a bit before the chemo starts.  They will also do what they can to minimize the effects of the chemo on him but still target the cancers.  He is going to try making shakes with a protein powder. Hopefully, this will help to build him up with some extra calories.

Dad is doing what he can to prevent infections, trying to keep from banging himself up. And not falling down.

I went to dinner with them last night and I have to say, he looks pretty good.  Still super skinny but he looks more alert and I don't know, he just looks healthier. I can't say what exactly but I'm liking how he looks.

He is still smoking as he always has.  I think if he were to cut back on those, he would feel worse and would be grumpier with everything around him.  Which is what we want to prevent.  No grumpy Daddy.

I am proud of him for his efforts to get healthier before he starts the chemo. He's got a good attitude, which is helping me to be strong and positive around him.

Not Much Happening

This week has been pretty quiet so far, with not much happening. I guess that's a good thing! I have been moving into my new bloggy space. You can see some of the changes I have made and I will be working on more.

Son is already getting excited that he is going to his dad's this weekend and to be honest, so am I! It took a while but I have come to look at his weekends away as a chance to re-charge ME and helps me to be a better mom to him.

I am looking forward to a quiet, rainy, windy weekend that will give me NO excuse but to park my sick butt on the couch and rest. Yes, I have been sick since the beginning of September, twice now the Dr has told me I am not really sick because colds don't stay around for this long. DUH! He has also offered nothing to help me get better, UGH. So a weekend of rest, chicken noodle soup and hot tea, along with a bunch of movies should help!

Thank you to my new followers! Welcome and I hope that you enjoy my bloggy mind! I have also won an award that I will post about later today!

Facebook

Everyone I know has a MySpace page. Not me. I even mocked people with MySpace pages. pfft! What do you need THAT for? HA.

Then my friend said that she was on Facebook. And that I should see ALL the people we went to school with who were on there! It was COOL to be on Facebook, or so she said.

So I signed up and made friends with her. Yes, there were lots of people I knew and/or went to school with. But I didn't "hang" with these people in school. Why would they want to be friends with me now? So I wasn't and still am not very proactive about being your friend on Facebook. I am choosy about who I am friends with. So if I am friends with you on Facebook, I really like you!

Until Denise of Sunflowers, Chocolate and Little Boys, sent a friend request to me. She and I weren't really friends in high school, we certainly didn't "hang" together. I dated her brother for a while but when that fizzled, I moved off in a different direction from Denise. Don't get me wrong, I liked her but she was just my boyfriends little sister. lol

So the day that Denise friended me, I was feeling particularly lonely so I accepted. From that day forward, she always commented on my status, eventually we were emailing through facebook, then exchanged home emails and phone numbers. OH! And when we figured out that we lived around the corner from each other, that was the deal sealer! We were destined to be best friends!

I don't want to say that she cyber stalked me but............ I am glad that she did!

Its been just over a year since she and I reconnected on Facebook and we have had MANY Girls Nights In and Out (with more to come!), our kids get along very well, and her husband likes me too, always a plus!

After I had a particularly trying day and whining to Denise that I wished my therapist hadn't discharged me, she introduced me to blogging. "It's therapy without the car ride, the wait and its FREE!" Free? I'm there! So I started a blog, which I have since closed down do to a stalker. And she was right. Free therapy!

Then she would talk about all the blogs she was "following" and she showed me how to do that. Now I spend HOURS reading and commenting on other peoples lives. And I am not as lonely.

So, Facebook, Thank you for bringing me new/old friends!

Denise, thank you for introducing me to free therapy and for cyber stalking me! Love you!