For the next 30 days, I am going to write the complete and utter truth about myself. Here is day 4
If you missed previous days, go here.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
I know I seem to have a common theme in these 30 days of truth, mainly about my divorce but that was a HUGE change in my life. It’s like I was born again through it. And maybe I was.
I know that I have to forgive my ex for all the hurt he caused me at the end of the marriage and through the divorce. There are days that I actually think I have. Then something comes up that triggers the old hurt and anger. Thankfully, it doesn’t take as long to get over it as it used to. I think the biggest step I have taken in forgiving him is when I unblocked him on FaceBook. I haven’t tried to “friend” him but since we have mutual friends and if either of us posts to that friend, we would be able to see what was posted. I know I am not ready to “friend” him. Not by a long shot.
I am proud of how far I have come in my attitude toward him. I can refer to him by his name and not necessarily my “pet” name for him. Neicy actually remembers who I am talking about when I use his name.
It’s been 4 years for me to get this far so I think in another 5-6 I will be able to say that I completely forgive him. Unless he starts acting like an asshole again.