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I am so frustrated with everything at the moment.  We had our first session with the new/old therapist Val and Jakes was bouncing all over the place.  When he stepped out for a bathroom break, she asked me if this was normal or if he was showing off.  I would like to think some was showing off but this behavior is becoming regular.  I am so frustrated with his behavior at home, I am still trying to use the technique Val told me about, but I need to practice.  I am still yelling more than I want to.  I need time.  I need to stop being so hard on myself.  I need a vacation.

Son's father is frustrating me as well. I have sent him everything I have on Jakes, all the reports, my stories about his behaviors, any reports from school that I have.  EVERYTHING.  And its still not enough for his father.  He insists I have a better report than what I have sent him.  He says he doesn't have enough information to make a decision.  He says I didn't give him a report from the old therapist.  I offered to get it for him but he never responded that he wanted it.  So I called the agency to see how I can get it.  They want $15 for it.  I am not paying it.  If he wants the report, he can pay it and make arrangements to get the report.  I have signed authorizations for him to be allowed to contact the therapists and Doctors but he never does.  I done spoon feeding him information.  If he wants it, he can get it himself.  Grow up and be a responsible parent.  Of course, this will end up with us in court and will delay any improvement Jakes could make on the medication.  But I am done holding his hand and guiding him through stuff.  I am not his wife (thank you!) or his mother.  Handle it yourself.

On a good note, Jakes pediatrician said that if I can get him the psychiatrists evaluation, he would monitor Jakes medicine for us and we can see whatever therapist we want.  Woo ho!  That was easy!

I did something stupid.  Well, it didn't seem stupid at the time but......  I have always wanted to review grants.  I write them but I want to see how the end process works.  So when an opportunity for reviewing grants came up, I signed up and went through the training.  I now have 16 grants to review by Friday.  ugh.

Since I have so much to do, 14 grants to write by 12/2, I better sign off and get typing!