I moved six months ago. I settled into the new place quickly. Its nice to have a safe place to come home to and enjoy. Jakes loves the new place as well. He has made friends with the kids in the neighborhood and has even been exploring outside the neighborhood and found how close one of his friends from the farm lives. He is always asking to take my bike over their house.
It was a very good decision for me to move, for so many reasons. Overall, I am happier - I know I'm safer - and comfortable where I am now.
So WHY oh why do I keep kicking myself for things I left when I moved. Its not even expensive or sentimental stuff that I left. A Tupperwear pitcher. A bag of frozen peppers that I grew last summer. My hammock chair that I don't have a place to hang. Theses are just things I forgot to pack cause they were in use when I packed things up or were in the shed, which I didn't check. They are not things that are irreplaceable or that I even need.
Yet I am still haunted by the fact that I left them. I still kick myself several times a week over the fact that I left them. For the last SIX MONTHS. Really? Why can't I just let it go? I feel so stupid because I can't let it go.
I can only hope that as time goes by and I replace the things that I can use, I will stop kicking myself. Time heals all wounds, right?
I can only hope that as time goes by and I replace the things that I can use, I will stop kicking myself. Time heals all wounds, right?
I guess some part of you misses where you used to be, or, a tiny piece of your heart is sad to have had to move. Over time, your mind will fill with new things and your heart will grow to move on from the past. Blessings, Dear Soul, as you continue on your journey.
ReplyDeleteI guess some part of you misses where you used to be, or, a tiny piece of your heart is sad to have had to move. Over time, your mind will fill with new things and your heart will grow to move on from the past. Blessings, Dear Soul, as you continue on your journey.
ReplyDeleteah they are little touch points of the life you had before you know....and its those little things you dont realize how much you use until you really need them...smiles.
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