When my friend (HS) from High School visited this summer, we reminiced about high school when we were in the theatre club and how much we liked it. While I liked theatre, I loved being in the band and singing in the chorus. Every once in a while I get my flute out to see if I still remember how to play. I do! And there's nothing like singing in the car to the radio! One of the things HS said he would like to do is find something like our high school theatre club where he lives now. That got me to thinking the same thing for me, but maybe musical in nature instead.
In the local paper today there was an article where the community college singing group is looking for members! There is no fees and no auditions, just weekly practices on Tuesday evenings and there is a Christmas concert. Sounds like fate is telling me to go for it, right? It would be great fun! A chance to meet new people and do something I enjoy. It would be a great Mission for Me.
As you know, I have an 11 year old son with Aspergers who is currently in therapy every other week, you guessed it, on Tuesdays. The therapist is working with us toward discharge in the near future but Son still has some work to do.
You also know that I don't so much for myself. I work, I take care of Son, I take care of the house and my parents but I don't have very many hobbies of my own. I feel guilty when I leave Son with a babysitter to enjoy some time with my girlfriends and I try to schedule my "Me time" when Son is with his father.
I would LOVE to join the chorus group but for now I would only be able to attend every other Tuesdays. On the other Tuesdays, I would have to ask my parents to watch Son and get him ready for bed. I am fairly sure they wouldn't mind, they are not home yet for me to ask. I just don't know if I would be ok with doing something for ME on a school night and missing that time with Son. I am totally on the fence about this idea.
What's YOUR opinion? Would you do this for yourself? If you would do this for yourself, do you feel guilty leaving your child(ren) for the evening on a school night?